I have a paitence them going on in my head right now because I am not in control of this situation but they are running mighty thin today.
Over the course of this weekend my BP has taken a turn for the worse steadily increasing since Friday night topping out at 171/108 last night before bed and not really going down....I have been following the DR orders and have not really been doing anything for those of you who know me well this sitting around stuff is hard but I have been doing it, totally letting go of work and just trying to find peace.
Today I had my regular "weekly" date with my OB who said well let's get you checked into the hospital and do some testing/monitoring and I would like to get a second opinion before I make any decisions.
Down to Labor and Delivery I go and when she says what room I am going to be in...I laugh a little and say I know which one I have been it 5 times in 2 years now:) We go through all the motions and testing all the while even laying down in a quiet dark room does not bring down the BP below 160/100. The nurse says there is no way he will let you leave here....15 minutes later she comes back to tell me I can go home but that I have to see the specialist today or tom am at the latest, the DR will be right in.
My labs all come back that my organs are functioning fine right now and I don't have toxemia or pre-clampsia so that is a bonus but I am at high risk of having a stroke from the overall BP.....
Dr tells me that I can go home and he wants me to page him as soon as I am done with the DR and we will make the plan then. I really wanted him to give me the steroids that are needed for the lungs today as I don't know how much longer I can go on like this....my head is killing me....but he said maybe we can do more meds or they will have another solution...lets cross that bridge later....I am not really happy with that answer, I know how awful I feel but am trying to go with it as I cannot control everything.
I haven't heard from the specialist as of 230pm so I call the DR and get their number only to find out that didn't see the part of needing it to be today or early tomorrow so can they call me back and again here I wait....
Don't even get me started on Disability/Benefits providers needing me to give them the same information 6 times and they still don't get anything right:(
I know I am not in a good place right now and I don't want to control the outcome or have all the answers asap-well who am I kidding I do want that but really, I want this headache to go away! It is hard enough to be bed-resting with a 2 year old who doesn't have any clue about Mommy not feeling good it is about Mommy play/read/wrestle/watch TV with me, please:)
I will hopefully hear something soon, poor Brady has just been hanging out all day waiting and again we together have 1/2 the patience that 1 person should have for things like this....he feels bad wanting to help me and wanting to stop the headache but there is not anything he can do except get his medical license and give that second opinion:)
Wish Me Luck and less of a headache please!
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